I'm tired and at a loss for words today (I know, your surprised... I'm never at a loss for words). I'm just so tired, mentally and physically. It's just one of those days where you feel the world is against you. I had a half mental health day again yesterday... I feel really guilty but I just can't drag myself there anymore! I can't do it, I feel so beaten down and stretched thin. To make matters worse I've been forgetting important things at work, and this is starting to affect the customers!
I have my Dr's appointment tomorrow, and I'm really nervous about it. If she doesn't approve a stress leave for me I think I might have to quit...which really isn't an option for me because we need the money that would come from medical leave and mat leave. I just feel so defeated already, I have to try and think positively but it's so difficult when your having a down day!
On a plus note, Miss Grumpy pants actually woke up in a good mood today! She never wakes up in a good mood (she takes after me on that front). We took P and the dogs to Cultus Lake yesterday and P kept saying "Pool, pool", when we got down to the waters edge she walked right into the water with all her clothes on! The cold water didn't seem to bother her at all. I stripped her down to her diaper and she splashed and played in the water for half an hour! I think we definately have to try and make it down to the lake a few more times before the summer is completely gone.
I don't really have anything else to post about at the moment, there are a ton of thoughts flying through my head right now but I'm trying to concentrate on work a little bit. We'll see what happens as the day progresses